A love note, from child to mom, on being enough.
My third and youngest is my child who teaches me to trust myself as a mother – as a woman.
Tonight, when she awoke in the middle of the night, I immediately heard her – I always do. When I scooped her up and sat down to snuggle her, she asked (signed) for milk. She’d had a fever today and I always nurse her when she’s sick. At 19 months this is the longest I’ve nursed any of my kids. I keep telling myself I’m going to ween soon, once she realizes there’s barely any milk and looses interest. But she always wants me. She knows…
Tonight, after she’d drained my milk, I gave her some water and cradled her in my arms. And she kept murmuring “Mama… mama…“, reminding me that all she needed in that moment was me. That I was enough in myself. I took deep, full, slow breaths for her, and she continued, “mama…mama…” sometimes less than a whisper.
This child – who trusts me and believes that the solution she seeks can be found in me – is continuously teaching me that I am enough.
That I have all that is needed.
That I know what to do and am capable of seeing it through.
I am The Mother.
I am a Sacred Woman.
I hold the Divine Feminine.
And so do you. My story is your story. This love note is for you.